I never felt more alone in school than I did today. I don’t know why. I know some people talked to me and all but just because you’re with people it doesn’t mean you can’t feel alone. And I haven’t felt this way in a long time. Twice I very nearly broke down. Thank god for Hazwan. Well more thank god for Hazwan’s Meteora. Just drowning myself in Linkin Park at full volume and can help control your emotions a lot. I hate feeling this way so you know what, I give in or give up or whatever. Talk to me if you want to, don’t talk to me if you want to. I don’t care anymore. It’s your life and it’s your choice.

So I managed to skip science 6P today for the @Loud meeting. Because we had to meet sharp at 4.45 as there was a change in venue and none of the year ones even there was an RP Heritage room. Finally managed to meet Amanadz and Shakina again today. I think the three of us are the only ones with zero problems on our articles. In fact we submitted them 2 weeks earlier than the due date. So now till next Weds we have nothing to do so Amandaz and I came up with an idea for a whole new article.

And the best part is that its on a topic and I pride myself in knowing in, out, up, down, left and right. Borders. Yup, we’re writing an article on Borders. Planning to anyway. Still has to be approved by Ben and Prabhu. But basically we want to highlight all the amazingness of Borders and compare it to places like MPH, Popular, Times and Kino. Can’t wait to get started on that. Plus we need a min. of three pics so there’s a reason to go to Borders.

So today was science and we had the wonderfully exciting topic of Water. As in the molecule and this “unusual” properties. It was okay I guess. Eric grouped us according to our schools today so my team was a combo of SOH and STA. Jennie was the only STA. SOH was Milton, Kin Meng and Me. LOL. What a combo man.

Can you seriously imagine walking into a hotel and seeing Milton behind the desk???!! What a sight…

Anyway, I just wanna apologize to anyone I was short to today. I know I basically yelled at some people, face to face and on the phone and I may have been a little…unfriendly towards some. But it’s just been a real shitty day. Right from the moment I woke up.

In fact I think right now the only thing keeping me sane would be the fact that I am playing 8 become 1 on repeat since I boarded the train. And yes I’m typing this on the train. I can’t think of any other way to occupy my time. I would read but I’m in no mood for Dan Brown. Too serious.

I just looked out the window and I realized that I’m ONLY at AMK!! I’ve still got A LOT more stops to go. But once we hit the underground it’ll be fast. I just wanna go home and watch Bones!! David Boreanaz can definitely cheer me up.

I really really wish I could skip school tomorrow ‘cos someone asked me to catch Get Smart with him but he wants to go for an afternoon show and I can’t go after school because I’m either gonna get art materials with Kasmi and Anthony or I’m meeting Amandaz to get out cameras. Plus after last week’s much expected C grade I don’t think I wanna risk my GPA. Well, at least Hai Wei thought that it was fine that I had an off day. But can’t have another one tomorrow. I hope its VB because Michelle is in my group and she’s like super pro in VB.

When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please
To tame your world once more
- Crash N Burn by Savage Garden

Yes I know, VERY random but its in 8 becomes 1. Geez its 7.21 only. Only a half hour has passed since I boarded the train. That is so sad man. =( I think I have another ½ hour to go before I can get home. Oh wait Orchard’s next should be faster than that.

I wish there was some I could talk to but everyone is absorbed in their won problems and I get that. Totally since theirs is a little bit more stressful than mine. So that leaves me with Wiket Archives to vent out. So sorry to readers who sometime don’t get what I’m saying or are offended by the language, esp over the last few posts.

Ok, gotta get off soon. Well in one stop.

Cheers!