Ugh, I am in such an effed up mood today. Maybe I'm being overly sensitive or something but I can' take it anymore.

I feel like some people take me for granted. It's like sometimes I am willing to do alot for those I consider my friends. And I'm not saying I want to be thanked or whatever.

I just hate it when people think I can be tossed aside like yesterday's burnt toast. It's as though you couldn't care less about how I feel. I get that I've hurt you before, bad. But does that really mean you've got to take every damned opportunity to rub it in my face how much better off you are now.

Sometimes I know you do it for fun but there are times when it just pisses me off to no end. But I don't say anything because I know my getting angry is totally irratonal.

But what hurts me the most is when you think I am completely unaffected by what you say and do. Sometimes you propose something and I get all hyped about it mainly 'cos I get to do something with you. Then of course the ineveitable happens and you cancel at the last minute. It sucks. What sucks even more is that to you I seem indispensible. Like I can be replaced at any time. And that not only sucks but is scary as hell.

Ok done

Just so you know this isn't aimed at anyone from Macpherson Sec. So you guys can chill... ;)

And thanks a TON to Farhan who helped me cheer up alot today. Yeaaaaaaaaaaah.. Hahaha...